Thank you all for the years of questions, support and hellos to Boogar.
It's almost time.
Boogar is almost 21.
Two months ago he turned diabetic, and although he is doing well on insulin there are things changing that tell me it is almost time.
It is almost unbearable to contemplate loosing him, more so being the actual hands that give him release.
I promised him I would be the person who was with him in his last moments, and should he need help going, I would be the one to give the drugs. This is one of the hard things I do, to honor this promise of being responsible for each of my cats exit.
So there is no fear, no pain, no trip to the vet. Just their bed, their friends and me, the strange dark warrior angel with steady hands and the euthanasia drugs.
When I chose to take Boogar more than 20 years ago I promised the cat gods that when Boogar died I would leave the veterinary field. It's interesting, I am less than a year from completing my degree as a therapist. Coincidence? Or the pattern behind life.
I'm not working right now. I had my shoulder reconstructed, 40 years of dog wrestling, working understaffed and such left me needing 4 screws to hold it together.
The pattern again.
So I am thanking the cat gods. Thank you for 21 years. Thank you for the strength to never falter, never fail. Thank you for the strength in my hands to express Boogars bladder every day, every night. Thank you for the courage. For the love. For the friends all around the world we have made.
Boogar is receiving visitors on weekends by prior arrangement, for pets, food and love. He doesn't hurt, he's just doing what each of us must do, preparing to die.
Those of you who will need me in the future, I will still answer medical questions and help you take care of or make the best choices you can for your cats.
Light a candle for Boogar. I hope Pumpkin is waiting for him, and in the next life he is whole, strong, happy and loved for 20 more years.
Peace
Kadeth, with Boogar one last time.